I start:
I just moved in at my cegep (college exclusive to Quebec, 2-3 years between high school and university), in residences. I wanted this to be like a brand new step of my life, where I start everything new. It started pretty well, I who usually have difficulties in meeting people, approaching them, beginning new relations. I met many people, everything was stimulating and all. But especially, there was that one girl
I didn't speak much to her yet, but she really interested me and she seemed to like me, at least. I was looking forward with developing something, talking with her further, and blah and blah and see what it'd become. I wanted to put an end to my very old bad habit of fucking everything at the very start of a maybe-potential relationship, and start something correctly, and who knows, maybe she could become my girlfriend someday?So that's it, I wanted to start correctly. I chatted a little bit with her, it was fine. Tonight, we went to the "party" room - the room where you can go talk and play baby-foot or watch movies or TV or listen to music during the whole night - to play some game with 20-25 people. I sat near her, on the sofa next to her actually. But then, there was that guy - he is in his second year, a very charming and handsome boy, who kinda became a friend of mine actually - who came and sat in the same sofa as her. However, it was like a big single-person sofa, so two... it was a little tight. But we were 25 in the room, so everyone was a little tight. So we played some games and stuff, etc., then we watched Twilight (yes, wtf
) and most people just went out. We were like 6 watching the whole thing, and on those 6 people, there were me, that handsome guy and that girl (who still were in the same sofa), my roommate and some random girl who was just hugging him all the movie, and a wtf nab. They spent the whole movie together, one on each other and blah and blah. I mean, fuck.Seriously, this is a very [meaningless? uneventful? you get the point] story but it really hurt me. I don't know why. I think it's because I feel like I was so "ok, this is the moment of your life when you stop acting like an idiot." and I thought it was actually going pretty well with her, and I was really hoping to be actually able to not fuck up any hope of possible relation by doing some crazy stupid mongo shit like I can do when I go nuts. Then this came and I was just "shit, why." Fuck you all. I can't blame the guy, he is really nice and handsome and all, I like him, too. But fuck, how did he just come like that and (maybe, I'm not sure, I mean I was not looking at them all night, but I'm 50% sure I saw this) kissed her like, on the first night they actually talk to each other. Fuck, again. And fuck. It really depresses me. Plus that guy has a "reputation" for having a lot of girls on him like that. And he seemed to have chosen her. And I, who is more passive and talking less, and less handsome and less this and less that, I thought I could stand a chance. I wanted to make something right for one time, and life just told me "Shut up nab."
Shit moment.
And personally, I think this forum is a nice thing to talk about it because it's accessible and you can just share something you wouldn't share to someone who actually knows you, and talking about it always makes you think and you feel much better after. In my opinion. But I agree, it's such emo topic 
sucker 
